Spell it out however you please

yesterday, we floated down the buffalo river... in canoes. it was a 6 mile journey of which we tackled with such a tenacity we might've been mistaken for a gang of modern day pirates. who knows?! i only had enough battery to take and send one picture of the little picnic we had on a river bank... you can check it out on our mobile stream at paramore.net!

needless to say, our couple of off days have been nice. josh and zac traveled home and the rest of us just did what we do best... hang out and be pirates. i got a call around 7am (which is not a good hour for me) from josh saying that all the flights were cancelled and he didn't know what they were going to do about getting to arkansas. lucky for all of us, our friend brandon - who's filming for a little DVD we're putting out later this year - is heading this way and he hadn't left yet... so josh and zac are taking the road trip with him and will make it in time. hopefully, they'll be here before meet and greet!

little rock is a really nice place. we haven't spent much time here as a band. most of you will know, this is jeremy's hometown. he knows it like the back of his hand; he's got stories to tell for every corner of just about every street. it's really cool seeing a bit of his stomping grounds. hopefully, we'll have time outside of press today to walk around and enjoy some of the city. there are all kind of funky shops... places i could get into some trouble at if i don't keep a close guard on my per diem!




i leave you with this classy little number of myself thru a fisheye lens.



<3 Hayley

mesa, arizona is scorching hot!!! my pale-ness is in a state of shock. SPF 1000 alert!!! haha

i finally finished new moon today (2nd in the twilight saga). i have been struggling through it due to the on-off-ness of our touring state the past few months. i missed the breaking dawn party last night at borders... probably a good thing because i would've been so excited the temptation to skip right over eclipse and tear into breaking dawn would've overcome me and then what kind of mess would i be in?? so anyways, now i'm a chapter into the 3rd book and the 4th will be waiting on me when i get home. (i reserved a copy - YES!) i'm stoked for the twilight movie. i think it's gonna be really good. i'm definitely going to dress up as a vampire to go see it. wanna fight about it?

tomorrow is a drive day and we'll be headed somewhere between here and little rock to stay the night, before we have another day off in little rock. jeremy's taking us canoeing or something which i'm way too excited for. he's been trying to take us on that trip since 2004 when we started playing shows outside TN. we'll make sure to take some good pics of that for you guys. it's about time we update our myspace photo section anyways.

our first band BBQ is happening today at the fan club M&G. we are stoked. it's about time we organized these types of things. it makes it more fun for us and more personal for you guys, i think. i couldn't stand the tables or the lines... that's for a festival setting. for our own shows we'd like to think it's possible that we can always talk to you guys and have real connection on and off the stage. i know times change but... we'll keep resisting haha.

anyone out there hailing from manila, philippines? NFG is playing a festival or something there tonight with a whole bunch of other bands. if anyone is going... ransack the stage and give chad a big ol' bear hug for me. okay don't really do that... it's possible you could get into trouble, it's a pretty big festival. um let's see, there has to be another option. maybe a sign? "hayley says 'hi"??? umm... well, whatever, if you're going just have a great time! they're gonna be so awesome!!!

alright i'm out haha. that movie shooter just came on. marky mark wahlberg is tearin it up!

hayley

hello loves,

5 days into the tour, 3 shows - 4th tonight in San Diego. i'm so stoked to be here. i spent yesterday in Los Angeles hangin with some friends. went to Amoeba Music! grabbed In and Out and saw Stepbrothers. what a great day off. (i guess i'm only capitalizing proper nouns, here).

so, the reason i'm posting today is actually to let you guys know that we are running a contest with Sweet Leaf tea. mmm so yummy! together, we are flying two winners out to our show at Central Park in NYC!!! keep looking out for details... either here or at www.sweetleaftea.com!

i have to go soundcheck, sorry this is so short - i'll be posting more regularly once we really get into the tour. thanks so much to everyone who's already come out to a show or has already bought tickets to an upcoming show. we're having a blast so far and it's only gonna get better.

okay, really gotta run! laterrr
hbombdiggity

I am ready to go now, to venture into the new world. I want this now, i'm mentally prepared to become an adult. It's coming up and I am getting excited. I'm content with leaving the past behind because I have learned from it. Before, I was consumed by the past; I worried about things that could happen again, things that could result in me losing my way but I am tired of being stressed over it. I am done with that old me. I have also realized that God comes first and I must put my trust into him and he will help me lead the way. I was unsure but my faith in Him has created this attraction, this bond that is just between He and I. I can't worry about others, He will take care of it as well and I can't attempt to fix things on my own. Everyone needs help, whether they want to believe it or not, I can't barge in and save the day.

I think that is what stressed me out, trying to make others lives easier while my own began to wither away. I was really depressed and in this state where I felt nothing, but now I am prepared to start over and begin fresh. Past relationships I must end as I let others flourish and some I must let flow and form into whatever it becomes.

I am in love but I am not sure of how to handle the situation, I don't even know if it's love but I think it's teaching me a lot about relationships and my discipline of staying on the right path through chastity. It's a moral decision that I have made to myself and is in no way religious. I realize that I am human through this process and that it can be difficult but I must remain focused and honest with myself. If I don't follow my goal, it is okay, it is not something I will blame myself or anyone else for. What happens happens but I hope that I can resist temptation throughout college. lol.

I told myself I would stop complaining and suck it up. Life has ups and downs and I must prepare myself for the downs. I also need to stop being annoying and rude. I don't like it when others treat me that way so I shouldn't either. I love everyone and should act accordingly. I am at peace for now.